I feel it Setting In

I'm not much of a happy go lucky person- yeah, I know, that isn't much of a newsflash for most of you. It is hard for me to be a glass is half full kind of person. I'm more of a 'my freakin glass is cracked and leaking all over the place' kind of person. My natural tendency is to first see the negative and what will go wrong- not the positive and good in everything.

So as the holidays approach, I can feel the depression starting to set in. I know- who gets depressed at the holidays, right? What is wrong with me?? Most people love the holidays and get all happy, warm, and fuzzy. Not me. The holidays mean time with family- which is the problem. Spending time with my husband's family is really hard for me. It has been 6 years and I just can't seem to forgive them and move past their refusal to accept me. 6 years I have carried this around and 6 years of holidays I have sucked it up and tried to be the bigger person. But this year- I don't want to anymore. I see them doing it all over again, I see them hurting someone else the way they hurt me, and I hate it. I want to throw my Thanksgiving turkey at them instead of sitting down with them. 6 years is a long time to hold a grudge.....I know letting it go is the right thing to do, but I'm having trouble doing that.

To make matters worse- I don't like winter. The holidays- yeah, they happen to coincide with winter. I hate being cold. Hate it. And I'm always cold. Like right now- already in a sweatshirt and wrapped in a blanket. That doesn't leave much left to do to keep warm when it is really cold out in the middle of winter.

I can feel it coming- I can feel the negative, depression, grumpy me coming. What I can't figure out is how to stop it........

More Fun

This week we are taking Ashlyn to see Disney on Ice (Celebrations). She loves the Disney on Ice shows and we go on opening night because it is cheaper. I'm looking forward to it- hopefully se enjoys it again this year!

Riley has been talking up a storm lately. Recently his favorite phrases are "What it is?" (instead of what is it) and "Let me do it!" He does not look one little bit like a baby anymore- all little boy now!

Trick or Treat

I've been so super busy with school this year- but, I LOVE teaching 3rd grade. I just love the age group, the things I am teaching, and the structure of it. I hope I can stay- I am really enjoying it. It is so much work but it is going well. So my silence is a good thing- I'm busy but content!

I couldn't pass up sharing my little miss and mister at Halloween time though.

Ashlyn was Princess Jasmine and Riley was Bob (from Veggie Tales)

Rileyisms

A few Riley funnies:

Me- Riley, what color is your shirt? (he still doesn't know his colors)
Riley- I'm busy!

Riley- "mommy, you stay home today?"
Me- sigh.....thinking about quiting my job when he says that

driving in the car Riley says - "I want to go to the beach"
me too buddy, me too!!

I'm pretty sure I'm biased....but check this out

Ashlyn's school pictures- these were her Kindergarten pictures- wow am I in trouble when she get to high school! My beautiful girl!!

Soccer Star

Ashlyn is half way through her soccer season. She can still be a bit hit or miss with it- sometimes she is on fire and doing really well, other times she doesn't have much behind her. But she seems to be having fun for the most part.

Click Away

It is Breast Cancer Awareness month- click away and help out a worth while cause.